skirt: target (shop), top: anthropologie (gift from mom), black cardigan: target (altered), nude heels: kohls, pearl bracelets: charlotte russe, initials necklace: gift from Philip
Yesterday, after church, I jumped on facebook and while scrolling through my news feed, came across a friend’s status. She announced that her children’s pediatrician had passed away on Saturday, and then gave his name and the name of his office. I did a double take and realized that was Peanut’s pediatrician. Just like that, gone. A man that I didn’t know really well, but one that I had met with multiple times, who had given me advice and direction for Peanut, and who took such great care of our little boy from the time Peanut was only a few days old. It sent me into a temporary state of shock, and then all day I thought of him, his wife, and his five young children.
As I thought about this doctor for the rest of the day, it brought to mind a personal loss that we experienced as a family last fall — the loss of my second pregnancy. I got pregnant toward the end of the summer, and after ten weeks, I began bleeding and after an emergency ultrasound, it was confirmed that the baby had stopped growing at seven weeks. Just like that, gone. A baby that we had prayed and hoped for, that we anxiously anticipated the arrival of, was gone. I know that so many women experience miscarriages, but still it was heartbreaking, and devastating, and it made me realize how fragile life really is.
But through all of this it’s made me realized and appreciate how blessed I am to be living an amazing life, to have an unbelievably supportive and loving husband, and to have Peanut, who is my pride and joy and is absolutely brimming with life. It’s so easy to get caught up in daily life that sometimes we forget to really live. To enjoy and appreciate the life we do have.
So today I’m living my life to the fullest, because I’m grateful for life. Hope you are too.